Vitamin P and Me

This is the first post where I am going to be completely serious about my situation. In all honesty it took me a while to be true with myself and my feelings but here it goes.....




A flier from a show in 2010

                 I  play in a band. Or I played in a band. The name of it is Vitamin P. But Vitamin P became more than a band when we parted ways the first time in 2003. Vitamin P became a name associated with me, Cam Villa. The reason we parted was  forthright, our guitar player, died in a car accident. Fell asleep at the wheel of his car after a long day. His name was Christian Bartesch and in my young mind he was the best guitar player I had ever seen. Very charismatic with an instrument in hand and a loyal friend. Ben Hazard was the another member of Vitamin P. A drummer, guitar player, songwriter and producer, Ben has been, and continues to be one of the biggest influences in my short musical career.  Ben created the idea of Vitamin P but he has always had other musical projects occurring over the years. Other members have come and go over the years but Ben and Christian in my mind have always been the original Vitamin P members.

Doey Rock opened for us

                                 Ben and I have had the opportunity to reconnect when his wife and him moved back to Sacramento in the fall of 2009 from NYC.  We instantly started working on music stuff again and found ourselves in a  unique situation where we had both grown as people which luckily transposed into creative music . One thing though was very evident, we had never had an argument, a disagreement, or any other growth confrontations. We had gotten along for so long that outside of music we were great friends . The last time we worked on music related projects I was 22 and Ben was 32. Now we are at it 10 years later . We play rap. Rap with the live and synthesized song of drums and guitar. We used to play in a full live band but changed it up and working with the resources we got .

         We have played a few shows this year at Harlow's, The Firedance, The Blue Lamp, and my Favorite Cheaters'. Great turnouts and good support. But now we are at a point where it is time to get serious and either make a CD or close it up. I am ready to make this CD or EP and see where it takes us. But my deepest fear has been realized in understanding that Ben does not feel the same way. He has other music and ideas in his mind and I don't think those coincide with my ideas. It looks like after all these years we are parting ways. I love the guy and i thought the only reason i was doing all this was for our satisfaction.

But I know now that music and the enjoyment of sound is something that must only bring me satisfaction first before it is released to the masses . So I am off to try this on my own.